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I'm not sure if deconstruction is right for me or that's even what I'm doing.
2.
I believe in my ability to navigate this, even though I don’t have all the answers right now.
3.
Most days I feel calm and safe in most of my spaces and relationships.
4.
I want to trust myself more but it’s really hard and so most of the time, I don’t.
5.
I trust my inner knowing and am confident I can sort out what’s Truth and what isn’t.
6.
Looking back I can see I've been deconstructing for a while, I just didn't realize it until recently.
7.
I’ve started to pull back from relationships with abusive people and communities.
8.
I am learning to ask for what I need and not enable others.
9.
I think I'm mostly through deconstruction-It no longer comes up most days.
10.
I have lost a lot of my community and am scared to try new spaces.
11.
I’m ready to trust myself more but still trying to figure out how to do that.
12.
Most of my communities are not healthy, but I’m afraid to walk away and be all alone.
13.
Deconstruction is hard, but I'm excited because I can see how it's helping me heal a lot of old stuff.
14.
My inner circle has gotten really small. I think that’s OK for now, but boy howdy, it’s lonely.
15.
Just thinking about saying no to people or telling them I’m questioning my faith is terrifying.
16.
I realize I’ve been through traumatic things, but I’m scared they will swallow me whole if I go there.
17.
I am terrified of making the wrong decision and not being able to undo it.
18.
I’m speaking my truth even if it means feeling the sting of people rejecting and abandoning me.
19.
I’m working on the deepest, hardest parts of my life and can see the light at the end of the tunnel.
20.
I recognize the Divine all around me and am less concerned with fitting to specific boxes.
21.
I confidently draw boundaries that encourage healthy relationships.
22.
I’m embracing the mystery and undefinable nature of God.
23.
I avoid thinking about or feeling traumatic events in my life because it’s just better if I don’t.
24.
Deconstruction is hard, but I know it's what I need and I know I'm going to get through it.
25.
It’s hard to get quiet, but am starting to feel safer and calmer.
26.
I’m exploring a more expansive definition of God, faith, and spirituality.
27.
I am still sorting through a lot of info, but it’s not as overwhelming as it used to be.
28.
My scars are soft and don’t hurt as much as they used to when something bumps up against them.
29.
I’ve realized there are a lot of grey areas and no one source has all the right answers.
30.
I feel tense, confused, and on edge most days.
31.
My past has been hard, but most days, it doesn’t take over the present moment.
32.
I miss some of the old sacred practices but don’t know if I can get back the joy and connection they used to bring.
33.
My circle is growing, and I’m not compromising my values so people will like me.
34.
I’m reconnecting with old sacred practices in new, non-legalistic ways.
35.
I am really mad at Christian people, but I don’t know if it’s God’s fault.
36.
I have a consistent but flexible rhythm of sacred practices that nourish me daily.
37.
I am more afraid of not asking the questions than I am getting “wrong” answers.
38.
I am learning how to settle my fight/flight/freeze response when activated.
39.
God, church, and all those old sacred practices feel so distant, and I’m really worried.
40.
I have people in my life who deserve to be here and are safe with the most sacred parts of me.
41.
I don’t know who I should be listening to and am overwhelmed.
42.
I have created, adopted, or reclaimed sacred practices that feel encouraging and energizing.
43.
Nearly all of my time is spent open and vulnerable, and I can adjust easily.
44.
I’m not even sure if God exists and I don’t know how I feel about that.
45.
I’ve paired back a lot of the voices I used to listen to and am trying to find peace.
