I don’t know about you, but I have spent years worrying about people seeing the real me.
I worry about people seeing through the nice smiles and the polite phone voice and all the extra effort it takes for me to be up and out in public, and present an image of someone who has their stuff together. I worry that my kids will recognize that I don’t always know the answer when they ask those hard questions. I worry that my husband will wonder if he got scammed, if it was a bait and switch, and somehow the girl he dated had run off somewhere else and he was left with me. I wonder if my parents look at me and think “How did she get here?” instead of where they thought I would always end up.
I wonder if you, my beloved sisters, who follow me online and read this blog and read my emails see me as a false prophet, and recognize that my messy words may not always reflect the heart of God.
I spend a lot of time feeling like an impostor, feeling like Moses at the burning bush, saying “You want me to do what?! Why should I talk to Pharaoh? I’m not good with words, send somebody else.” Maybe you do too.
But the more time I spend with courageous Christian women who are taking God’s word of hope and encouragement and salvation into every dark corner of the world, the more I hear them say they feel like impostors too.
The women with more books than me, the preachers who take my breath away because their words so perfectly reflect exactly what I needed to hear, the bloggers with huge platforms, the women who are prettier, the ones with nicer homes, the ones with bigger email lists who always make home cooked treats and have million dollar launches.
Sisters, the more time I spend with God, the more I learn what He says about me, and it’s making me question this whole impostor syndrome.
It’s real, I don’t doubt that it’s real. What I question is why on earth do I give it so much credit? Why does the voice of doubt, whom we call the saboteur in the coaching world, get so much time in my head when I have a God who is incapable of speaking lies? Just waiting for me to make time to listen to Him so He set me straight and release me from those doubts(again)?
That’s the trick that the world plays on us.
That’s the trick that evil and darkness have going, and they’re really good at it, because most of us question our value. Most of us question whether we’re good enough to sit with God, whether we’re good enough to be a mom to our kids, or whether we’re good enough to do this big scary calling that God has put in front of us.
But here’s the thing: God doesn’t lie.
God doesn’t make mistakes. And God isn’t an infomercial salesman trying to hype you up so that you’ll go along and make a spontaneous purchase that you’ll regret later. That’s not who God is, He’s incapable of those things.
God is Truth.
God is Hope.
God is Life.
Which means those are the ONLY things that He is pouring into us.
He’s pouring His truth, which is greater than any lie the enemy can tell you. He’s pouring His hope, which is greater than any fear that’s in the world, and He’s pouring His salvation and His grace, which is greater than any mistake we ever have made or ever will make. Perhaps impostor syndrome will diminish when we recognize that God’s not going to scream and shout and jump up and down to get our attention.
Because I believe, God’s voice is that small still voice at night that says “ I love You.
Let’s go do this amazing thing.”
How do you overcome imposter syndrome? I’d love it if you let me know in the comments, and don’t forget to join the conversation over in our group of like minded women, Christian Women Who Lead!
Christian Life and Leadership Coach , Angela J Herrington, loves helping women find freedom and fulfillment in their God given calling. She teaches women how to recognize, cultivate, and unleash their God given leadership ability. A true Gen Xer-Angela loves thinking outside the box, combining things that are seemingly unrelated, and helping women create a unique life that perfectly suits their soul.
With 8 years of life, business, social media, and leadership coaching under her belt Angela a dynamic speaker and writer who creates enormous value for her audiences. She is known for crushing complex topics down to bite sized pieces and sending her audience home with actionable steps to apply their learning.
Angela is a Lark’s Song Certified Life Coach who reaches hundreds of thousands of women in 40+ countries each month on Facebook, Twitter, Pinterest and two blogs.
As the founder of Broken Beautiful BOLD Women’s Ministry, AngelaJHerrington.com, Christian Women Who Lead, The Calling Course, The Impact Incubator, and the XGen Christian Women’s Leadership Project, Angela receives rave reviews at women’s ministry events, writer’s conferences, and small business workshops.
Angela, her husband, and five children live in her home state of Indiana. Angela has served on the Board of Directors for Christian Coaches International, as Vice Chair of the Carey Services Board of Directors, and held multiple positions in her local church, scouting organizations, and schools.
She holds a BA in Biblical Studies from Indiana Wesleyan and a Master’s in Leadership from Wesley Seminary. Angela’s short story “The Turkey Trail“ was published in the collection Naturally Yours: Stories About Indiana’s State Parks and Reservoirs. She has been published in Hope for Women and HOPE is Now magazines.